But, I have to be honest and say these past 4 weeks have been nothing short of beauty and excitement, but it has not been all rainbows and butterflies either. It has definitely been somewhat of survival mode with me being a stay at home mom and having a newborn and a toddler who just hit 16 months a few days ago to juggle. I find myself multitasking-tasking like crazy and experimenting with different ways I can make things easier and convenient for me to manage two kids throughout the day. Half the time I don't know what day it is and the sun lots of times is my go to clock.
I find my days are booked up washing bottles, sippy cups. and twice the amount of laundry. My days are a never ending task of finding stale cheerios and soggy blueberries left over from the day before in between couch cushions. I'm constantly juggling the feeding demands of a newborn and toddler while wiping boogies, tiny bee-hinds and kissing little imaginary boo boos. Lot's of day's I'm occupied with trying to distract the oldest from giving the littlest whip lash or a broken limb, and lately I have spent majority of the days correcting an overly defiant toddler who is hitting the terrible two stage a bit early while timing nap times just right so that both little ones can sleep at the same time. Most days if I get this right and able to make it out of our pj's by 4 pm then I define it as a successful day! To top it off if I can at least remember to get mine and the toddlers teeth brushed then I definitely feel like I should receive a gold medal of some sort. :)
I find my days are booked up washing bottles, sippy cups. and twice the amount of laundry. My days are a never ending task of finding stale cheerios and soggy blueberries left over from the day before in between couch cushions. I'm constantly juggling the feeding demands of a newborn and toddler while wiping boogies, tiny bee-hinds and kissing little imaginary boo boos. Lot's of day's I'm occupied with trying to distract the oldest from giving the littlest whip lash or a broken limb, and lately I have spent majority of the days correcting an overly defiant toddler who is hitting the terrible two stage a bit early while timing nap times just right so that both little ones can sleep at the same time. Most days if I get this right and able to make it out of our pj's by 4 pm then I define it as a successful day! To top it off if I can at least remember to get mine and the toddlers teeth brushed then I definitely feel like I should receive a gold medal of some sort. :)
Needless to say...juggling two kids under the age of two as a stay at home mom has been quite an adventure so far, and I have been so tired and exhausted from trying to figure all of this out and establish ourselves a daily routine.
I am tired, but I am finding that it's the kind of tired that if you're going to be tired...you want this kind of tiredness.
I am tired, but I am finding that it's the kind of tired that if you're going to be tired...you want this kind of tiredness.
It's a tiredness from carrying the weight of two sleeping little's ones at the same time up the stairs for nap times. It's a tiredness from waking up every few hours in the night to feed and rock the littlest back to sleep. It's a tiredness from never having to truly rest your feet because they are busy pacing the floors throughout the day cleaning, washing tiny clothes, picking up toys, playing with toys, and chasing a cute little toddler around who has more energy than you can shake a stick at. It's a tiredness from laughing till your gut hurts at watching the oldest grow in his personality and making the funniest new discoveries. It's the tiredness of your mind because you are constantly thinking of their needs instead of your own and it's a tiredness in your knees because they are having to hit the floor several times throughout the day approaching God's heavenly throne in prayer for patience with a toddler meltdown.
So while I may be tired today, it's the type of tired that I do welcome...because this type of tired makes my heart so full.
Full of joy...in watching their every milestone, and new discovery. In getting sweet cuddles, slobbery kisses and tiny hugs. The smell of my new baby girls skin and her tiny grins, and the ability to use my God given instincts to parent and mother my children...even through a toddler meltdown. I know these days are long, but these years are so short and I want to savor and grasp every little moment as much as I can...the overwhelming, the messy, the chaotic, completely crazy, and the tired because I know I will never get these moment's in time back and these years are so important. I find that motherhood has taught me more about life, and God's love than anything ever has before, and as tired, overwhelmed and exhausted at the end of the day I may be I can always find that I learned something new that day through the eyes of my children.
So while I may be tired today, it's the type of tired that I do welcome...because this type of tired makes my heart so full.
Full of joy...in watching their every milestone, and new discovery. In getting sweet cuddles, slobbery kisses and tiny hugs. The smell of my new baby girls skin and her tiny grins, and the ability to use my God given instincts to parent and mother my children...even through a toddler meltdown. I know these days are long, but these years are so short and I want to savor and grasp every little moment as much as I can...the overwhelming, the messy, the chaotic, completely crazy, and the tired because I know I will never get these moment's in time back and these years are so important. I find that motherhood has taught me more about life, and God's love than anything ever has before, and as tired, overwhelmed and exhausted at the end of the day I may be I can always find that I learned something new that day through the eyes of my children.
In closing, I never thought being so tired could be such a blessing! So motherhood bring on the tired, but if you could take the toddler meltdowns with you that would be great too. :)
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